30 September 2007

sleepy head...

Today Mom and Amy and I drove my car up to Seven Springs to check out the campground and to just satisfy our curiosity in general. We girls have always been adeventursome and always like to explore new places. Since the gravel road wasn't too bumpy, my "me sized" car did OK. When we got up there, it smelled really good, like trees and water and fall. It was quiet. We went down to a little section of the creek and saw deer and raccoon tracks. There was a big boulder in the middle of the stream with some smaller rocks up against it. The water flowed between and over the rocks and made a sound like a bathtub when it is emptying. We thought it was quite original. I hope that we can go camping up there with Kyle. I think that we are going to invite Ben Boyd too. He's really quite nice and likes to carry on intelligent conversations, much like Kyle. I have often found myself chit-chatting with people who I do not know very well about the most shallow and unimportant things. I know that you have to do that sometimes, but I find it easier to actually talk and have a conversation with a few people who I know well. It is easier for me to keep track of less people and have more meaningful relationships, than to know a lot of people and talk about nothing, or only have a good talk with them once in a loooong while. I need to write to my best friend Rachel. I always neglect writing to her beacuse she is so far away and, I hate to admit it, but it's the whole out of sight out of mind thing. I try to keep one of her letters hanging over my desk to remind me of her. Her birthday is this next month on the 19th...

29 September 2007

Still thinking

I am still wanting to go to Brooks Institute of Photography in Santa Barbara, California. I am looking for a job right now to save the money I will need to buy a medium format camera for my classes. I often feel bad about needing to depend on my parents for gas money, and don't think I have a good enough plan (if I even have one at all) to save money. I don't like being stressed out about how much is in my account. Amy says to just get a job. I am pursuing an opening at a jeweler, but the guy still needs a couple of weeks to figure out if and what he would need me for. Most people proabably think I am in over my head with all of the stuff I am doing right now, and also probably think that if I just quit some stuff, I would have more money to save. They are probably right. I am working on a logo for the Cave Creek Film and Arts Festival that, if I won, could bring me $500. I could pay for my dance choreography and show fee and maybe even have a little left over to put towards my costume. I am also going to enter the 28th Annual College Photographers Contest again this year. First prize is $1000. I have some great ideas that are just sitting in my head, waiting for a way to become reality. I came up with a really interesting idea for an engagement photo. I wish I could describe it, but it is so complex that only the photograph itself could show what my idea is. Oh, so many things, and just enough doubt.

18 September 2007

19th Birthday Commentary

Well, here I am. Nineteen years old and happy to be one year older. I am excited to go new places and do new things, and see what all is going to happen in my young life. I am currently in the process of finding a job, and am also thinking about places to intern and learn about the business of photography. I still really believe that I should go into photojournalistic photography and get all of this travelling out of my system while I am still unattached and young. I still think that I will want to have my own "studio" of sorts someday and take pictures of people in a way that conveys who they really are. I have no idea where all of this is going, but I am excited to be an artist. I am determined not to be a starving artist. I want to share my knowledge of photography with people and maybe someday I'll teach it. I think it would be cool to work for a magazine like National Geographic; someone who I could shoot photos and maybe ever write for that I could make a difference I peoples' lives. I will not be quiet about what needs to be said, even if it's only my photographs speaking. As of now, my interest is not so much political as just curious to know more about the people and places and to make people think about the images that they see, whether film or video, and to examine thier lives and those of the people around them. I am just a seedling in this world and am in a journey to grow closer to God and live a life that glorifies Him.